Surviving Step by Step:Looking Forward to No Treatment

My yearlong of treatment was not easily taken. There were many times that I felt awful and just wanted to stay in bed all day.. That would of been quite easy to do for some but for me it would of made me feel worse. Cancer, Surgery, Chemo,and Radiation were all scary words to hear and think about. I did a lot of resting, received tons of help, prayers and a few good jokes. I try to wrap my mind around what was happening to me and how it was going to affect my family. I cried a lot in the beginning, worried about my boys, my future and how we was going to get through this crazy year. And then the fog rolled away what came to my mind were a few helpful words.

      Faith, Hope, Love, and Strength. 

      It took every ounce of energy left in my body to stay focused. It was really hard at times then I would cry some more when my body and stomach ached for days. Then I felt better. My sister and friends listened to me complain and gave me laughter and I thank them for being there for support. When I found something good to eat that made me feel better, it was a joy. My goal was to get up for my children and see them off to school. I did this every morning to keep our household as normal as possible. Then slept at times after they left. There was tension and short tempers and very trying days. I was not always a happy participant. The year dragged on and now we are waiting for it all to end. I'm hoping after my Herceptin is over and out of my system, my body will begin to feel better. Even a little bit will be encouraging. Maybe I will be able to put my rings back on. Not walk so stiff and be sore from sitting or laying. Yes, the medicine did a number on the body, but I would do it all over again if it meant being here with the people I love and care about. I am so Blessed.

   My son won the Fourth grade Vocabulary Bee at Oriole Beach. He studied very hard and was confident the morning of the contest. I went to watch and was so very proud of my son. I was a little emotional. Just as wee bit. We spent hours and days and a few weeks preparing for this and now I'm so glad it is over. Onto FCAT and high school track. Always something going on with the children.

  It may be several weeks before I blog again. Job search very slow. Not giving up though. I hope all a wonderful day.

  My Faith will keep me strong and my Family will make me smile. Life is Good.