I am feeling much better than the last few days. Last week's chemo really slowed me down a bit. I was a little more tired this time and my body ached more. Staying close to home was the best advice I could give myself.

 

I'm getting comfortable with my new hairdo and hope to have a picture ready soon. Believe me, this is a process to accept. My younger children have asked not to see me without something on my head. I respect their honesty and wishes. I would not want to be the cause of their nightmares. I need all the rest I can get and would want to get up to soothe them if that happened. As it is, my sleeping pattern is not very good. I wake up often feeling very thirsty and very dry-mouthed. I keep water by my bedside. In my mind, I tell myself  "Don't look at the clock." This is repeated about every hour or so. Makes me upset. Before long, it is time to start the new day.

 

I look forward to a new routine next week. No set times for dinner, later bedtimes without the stress of hurrying on homework or bath times. Just some relaxing days spent with family and friends. My cousin and her husband are coming from Massachusetts. Been about seven years since I've seen them. My husband saw them about two years ago. His mother lives up there and he makes the rounds while visiting. We plan to hang out and eat out and visit a few places together. My cousin and I are going to see Robin Roberts(Good Morning America) that Friday evening. Ladies night out.  I plan on feeling good and hope not to feel too tired. I will bring a small goody bag  of items that may be needed. Always try to be prepared. I met my husband through both of them.They all actually grew up together in the same neighborhood. So there is a lot of talking to do and laughing. I look forward to their visit.

 

Do I feel blessed? Yes, I do. My body has done quite well with all these treatments. It could get worse after the next chemo, but for now will be happy for the way I'm feeling. My pace is slower, but still able to get about. I have accepted help more easily and could call a support person and they will be there for me. I try to stay positive and when the need comes to shed a few tears, I do. It makes me feel better. Not good to hold in all that stress and worry. But in the end, all will work out according to God's plan. My faith will keep me strong and my family will make me smile. Life is good.

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