|
The magical date is arriving next week. I'm so thrilled and feel as though it
would never come. But here it is, two more treatments , the big day being
February 10th. The year has been very long and tiring. My body is worn and needs
some TLC.
My yearlong of treatment was not easily taken. There were many times that I felt
awful and just wanted to stay in bed all day.. That would of been quite easy to
do for some but for me it would of made me feel worse. Cancer, Surgery,
Chemo,and Radiation were all scary words to hear and think about. I did a lot of
resting, received tons of help, prayers and a few good jokes. I try to wrap my
mind around what was happening to me and how it was going to affect my family. I
cried a lot in the beginning, worried about my boys, my future and how we was
going to get through this crazy year. And then the fog rolled away what came to
my mind were a few helpful words.
Faith, Hope, Love, and Strength.
It took every ounce of energy left in my body to stay focused. It was
really hard at times then I would cry some more when my body and stomach ached
for days. Then I felt better. My sister and friends listened to me complain and
gave me laughter and I thank them for being there for support. When I found
something good to eat that made me feel better, it was a joy. My goal was to get
up for my children and see them off to school. I did this every morning to keep
our household as normal as possible. Then slept at times after they left. There
was tension and short tempers and very trying days. I was not always a happy
participant. The year dragged on and now we are waiting for it all to end. I'm
hoping after my Herceptin is over and out of my system, my body will begin to
feel better. Even a little bit will be encouraging. Maybe I will be able to put
my rings back on. Not walk so stiff and be sore from sitting or laying. Yes, the
medicine did a number on the body, but I would do it all over again if it meant
being here with the people I love and care about. I am so Blessed.
My son won the Fourth grade Vocabulary Bee at Oriole Beach. He studied
very hard and was confident the morning of the contest. I went to watch and was
so very proud of my son. I was a little emotional. Just as wee bit. We spent
hours and days and a few weeks preparing for this and now I'm so glad it is
over. Onto FCAT and high school track. Always something going on with the
children.
It may be several weeks before I blog again. Job search very slow. Not
giving up though. I hope all a wonderful day.
My Faith will keep me strong and my Family will make me smile. Life is
Good.
|
Breaking News
